I've done it.
I've made the transition.
No more am I to be considered a child.
Or a youth.
Or a delinquent.
Not that I was ever considered a delinquent.
I've merged into adulthood. And while I like to think it happened overnight and one morning I just decided that maybe ironing my clothes before I wore them is a good practice to uphold, it didn't. But that doesn't stop the fact that I've become more responsible in the last few months.
At least in my mind.
I rarely get time for games, I spend more time at work than I do in my own bed, and I enjoy the thrill of planning. Like, anything. I'll plan my day the night before even though it's identical to the 6 other days before it. I've spent the last week formatting a new computer, organizing university for this semester, trying to fit in a holiday and going through the Narnia sized wardrobe worth of crap I own.
Welcome to adulthood!
- Better at organizing
- Respected as a mature part of society
- Alcohol tastes better
- A healthier lifestyle
- Steady income
- Wisdom and experience
- More responsibility
- Less time for playing Skyrim and kicking the shit out of zombies
- More bills and payments
- Alcohol tastes better and is therefore consumed more
- Less time to be creative
- Less time for parties and socialising
- Friends are available less due to same reasons
- Less time
It's kind of ridiculous the changes I've gone through, and I find myself thinking of the desire I had as a child to be older. It's a never ending cycle. The child wants to grow up, but as soon as they do they want to be a child again; so they try to keep their young as youthful as possible, no matter how constraining. But this only forces the child to want to grow even more, to escape their prison as a youth to become imprisoned in their adulthood.
But it's not that depressing. There are so many things that are available to me now that I'm older. So many doors opening, so many roads to go down. I can make choices for myself, and although the responsibility lies to me if anything were to go wrong, it's a mistake I will gladly chalk up to experience.
And the position in life I'm sitting in currently is the best you can ask for. I have disposable income, a flexible job, an open future with plenty of options, the support of loved ones and friend, a license to drive my car anywhere I want, and the knowledge that I can eat chocolate whenever I damn well want!
As long as I end up better than Lindsy Lohan, I will consider my life a success.